Oh the Harem!

(found an old post that i neglected to post… )

i was chatting to a friend of mine who i haven’t spoken to in a while and she asked me what’s new? i mentioned that i had recently got a really short hair cut and that i bought 3 guppies (this was a few weeks ago. the fish have all since passed *sad face*). the dull life of an old married lady.

and then she said “wow, you’re really up for trying new things in the US, hey…”

and you know what? she’s right! well, i didn’t realize it, until she said it. i mean, i have the short hair now and i really let it just do what it feels like doing. i’d usually be too afraid to have my hair be too crazy but i’m so happy when it’s a little nuts now.

my bestie’s words really gave me the confidence boost i needed so todaaay, i thought i’d buy a pair of harem pants. i’ve always loved how they look on the tall skinny models. so off i went to h&m and get my new style on. i started small, got a black pair. no need for too much too soon :). i didn’t try them on in the store in case i psyched myself out. but boy was i proud of myself, shopping out of my comfort zone. you go girl!!!

i couldn’t wait to get home and try them on in front of my toughest critic… the husband :). well,  i don’t want to get into the exact exchange of words that followed but it turns out i am neither tall & skinny nor a model and therefore have no business wearing harem pants. I believe the term “poo-catcher” was thrown at some point amidst the tears and hysterics… and something about me looking like a reject from the cast of aladdin…

anyway, my husband agreed with me that the pants were god awful but he said i shouldn’t be so hard on myself and maybe next time i should try the clothes on in the shop before buying them…. lesson learned.

[edit: i had a picture of me wearing the pants but i can’t find it right now…will keep looking, watch this space.]

Track of the Week!

Track of the Week!

I really should’ve done this ages ago but I’m doing it now because he’s on my mind…

A dear friend of mine was killed in a car accident a few months ago. He was only 27. It was tragic. These events are always tragic. I don’t want to dwell on his death since I believe I’ve processed the worst of it and the thoughts I have of him are only happy now.

Anyway, this is a track that he made (he was a budding trance music producer). I only found this song after his passing and it’s absolutely beautiful. It totally encompasses his spirit. I see his smiling face clearly when I listen to it and it makes me smile.

Thanks for always, and I mean always, making me smile Aidy-boy.

https://soundcloud.com/soul-sygnals/think-happy-thoughts

The end of an era…

The end of an era...

I guess another thing that happens as you go through your thirties, is growing up. Growing up, I find, means changing and accepting what’s important in your life. I feel like these moments become more and more necessary the older you get but they never get any easier.

A few weeks ago, I was at my tri-annual dentist check up where I was told in no uncertain terms that my tongue ring had loosened two of my bottom front teeth and she suggested I remove it. I was shattered. I stared in the mirror for longest time struggling with one of the biggest decisions in my adult life (I’m a simple woman. Don’t judge). It was with a heavy heart that I ended up taking it out. Actually, I had my husband fight for 20 minutes to take it out but it’s now gone and I while it took me a few days to get over it, I hardly miss it anymore and my dear dad was so ecstatic he had me ship him the barbell so he could frame it. hahaha.

I have since removed two more piercings. My belly button ring and the surface piercing on the back of my neck. The reasons for which I’ll cover in another post. My body looks naked and, honestly, part of me feels less interesting, which is extremely profound. I never thought that this form of expression would be so hard to turn away from. Even though the surface piercing was really annoying as hell and the tongue ring was slowly destroying my grill, they were a part of me and who I am.

I am deeply saddened by this part of growing up but now that I’m almost human I can safely say, I am more than my body jewelry.