Taking a Moment

Just thinking about my 3 little ones who didn’t pass PGD testing this week. I didn’t get full details but 2 were unbalanced (not sure which chromosomes) and 1 poor little baby was missing chromosome 22 and had and extra chromosome 19.

That’s a total of 7 embryos who likely wouldn’t have made it passed the first trimester had we transferred them without testing. I’m very grateful to have PGD testing to help avoid 7 potential early miscarriages but I am sad for them.

I’m sad but I’m so happy they were there. They each gave us renewed hope every single day they pushed through to make it to blastocysts.

They fought so hard and I’m so proud of them for trying.

It’s not lost on me that they were just balls of cells at that stage but they were ours. They were mine and I loved them.

I love them still.

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13 thoughts on “Taking a Moment

  1. They were lives. Regardless of if they would have been ‘viable’ they tried and they were yours. I completely understand the feeling. As much as I know that our unbalanced losses were never going to be a child in our arms, they were ours, and they are all missed.

  2. They were lives. Regardless of if they would have been ‘viable’ they tried and they were yours. I completely understand the feeling. As much as I know that our unbalanced losses were never going to be a child in our arms, they were ours, and they are all missed.

  3. I second what sbach said. They were lives, tiny or otherwise. They were made from a part of you and a part of your husband and you had so much hope in their potential. That is something to celebrate, something to grieve, something to always remember. Peace to you.

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