A quick update…

K, so I’m on week 3 of insanity. I actually made it through 3 weeks of something. And don’t be fooled, it’s not because I’m enjoying it. The only part I enjoy is maybe 15 minutes in I feel like I’m accomplishing something. That feeling promptly disappears after the workout is over, however, and I have yet to feel the euphoria of a workout well done.

So why am I pushing through? I don’t know guys… I don’t know. But what I do love about these videos is that the people in the background are real. They fall out when I fall out and I know they’re crying when I’m crying. I really hate sweating and crying through a workout while the people in the video are smiling and barely sweating. It does not inspire confidence. Yes, I’m talking to you, girls from Jillian Michaels’ 30 day shred!… There’s one lad from insanity, in particular, whom I just adore. My boy, Frankie. His face is so funny when he’s in pain, I love it. It’s so real. Feels like I’m looking in a mirror. There’s one shot of him with his face screwed up in pain and when he realizes the camera on him he tries in vain to pull it together. I love it. I’ll do insanity all day just to see those faces… I’m doing it for you Frankie!!! PS If anyone’s keeping score I’ve only dropped 2lbs and 1inch in my waist. That’ll do for now, I guess.

Hmmm. What else is going on in my life?

We’re doing a 21 day challenge at work. About 10 of us are all giving up something for 21 days, in an effort to be more healthy. I have chosen to give up refined carbs. This includes beer. My favourite thing in the whole world. We’re on day 12 now and I’m still hurting. I don’t want to go into the details of the withdrawal but know this… it hurts… I.am.sad. I don’t want to talk about it.

And now for my last bit of news. I’ve been going back and forth on whether or not to post about this. Mostly because I don’t want this to be the focus of my blog, but it is going to be my reality now so I guess it’s time. So after quite a bit of back and forth and a bit of denial, Mr and I are going to be starting some sort of fertility treatments. We have an appointment at the fertility clinic on Monday which I’m excited about.  I really don’t know what to expect at all besides the fifteen thousand possible outcomes, so I have no opinions or strong feelings at this stage. So I’ve just been OD’ing on all the fertility information I can. I’ve followed possibly 90% of all the ladies on Instagram who are going through a similar journey and I’ve been reading most of the fertility blogs too. I’m a more than a little obsessed but it’s  how I get when I’m passionate about something.

So yeah, that’s it for me for now. I guess I’ll update you on Monday. Right now I have to go not drink a beer on July 4th. FML!

 

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The Hangover

Everyone knows that as you get older your hangovers tend to last longer and hit harder. Mine, in particular, come with an added dose of shame and guilt that has to be processed after every night of frivolity. “Why do you do this to yourself every time?” I’ll ask myself in between gulps of bubbly water and cries of pain, promising to never fall into this trap again.

Another thing is that I find myself becoming decidedly introspective as I lay in bed coming to terms with myself. It’s a time when I find myself redefining my short term goals and even writing down steps I’d need to take to achieve said goals. All of which is pretty good in my book, except that these goals and lists and promises only last as long as the hangover itself and when the end of the week rolls around I find myself elbows deep in beer and pizza and the cycle begins again…

The latest of these instances was quite funny when I think about it. I had decided I would do a juice cleanse to clear my body of all the toxins I found myself battling with at the time. I promptly went out and bought a $30 juicer and $60 worth of vegetables and fruit on a Sunday afternoon in a cloudy haze of consciousness. Please note that any purchases have to be made in the midst of a hangover since I won’t be thinking clearly at the time. My hangovers usually cost more than the previous nights drinking, which I find quite amusing.

When I got home I ran out of steam to actually juice this mountain of healthy fruits and veggies and I ended up just falling asleep again. Obviously, the next day the hangover and the new cleanse goal were promptly forgotten.

Fast forward to last week as I was enjoying another lovely albeit milder hangover… This time I re-affirmed my need for a serious cleanse and just for added effect I figured I’d get my ass back in shape so I went online and bought …  I still can’t believe I did this… the Insanity workout program… That’s a new level of crazy, even for me.

But let’s look at the pro’s. I did in fact kind of complete the juice cleanse (I didn’t make the pre dinner juice because I was too tired after juicing stuff for 2 hours). It was only 3 days so that’s a plus. I used Dr Oz’s cleanse I found on Pinterest and I survived aaand I would do it again. The recipes actually taste a lot better than they sound. So I at least stuck to something. Go me!!! What you’ll see below is 4 of the 5 juices. Sweet potato juice worries me a bit. Maybe next time.

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As for this Insanity thing… I am notorious for not finishing something I start. I try not to let it get me too down because if I did I wouldn’t be able to look at myself in the mirror. The package was delivered yesterday and while I wasn’t nursing a hangover, I was dealing with a particularly difficult headache that would not go away. I think it has to do with my diet this past week. Mostly dirty carbs and sugar. So I usually try to eat clean during the week anyway and I’m trying to follow a Low Carb High Fat eating regime which is a lot easier than it looks until Thursday happens. In case you’re wondering, I play kickball with some friends from work on Thursdays and it usually ends at the bar where I drink too many beers and before I know it, it’s Sunday and I’m online paying lots of money for things I probably won’t ever use.

Anyway, we’ll see how this insanity thing goes. I’m about to jump on the scale now and do the necessary measurements and do the first day’s video. I’m not going to make any wild promises since I’m of sound mind, but I will try. I’ve already done 3 of these videos on the xbox. That’s what prompted my interest initially. So I’m not going into this blindly. But let’s see how it goes. If I stick to it I’ll post some progress pics. I actually have some before pics from when I did it the first time. So here goes nothing. Please excuse the low quality in these before pics. I’ll try to take better ones during the next hangover.

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