I am not religious… at all… I was raised in a churchgoing family but as soon as I got confirmed I took that to mean that I didn’t have to go to church anymore. The only times I would go would be Christmas and Easter because my mother insisted. Bless my mom for trying to get Jesus into our hearts. I don’t want to get into my relationship with God or Christianity as a whole simply because I don’t know where I stand at the moment. I have strong feelings on both sides and I just try to balance it out by being a good person as far as I can.
I am extremely blessed to have a Christian mother who cares about me and my desire to have child. I’ve read in some blogs I follow about some mothers not being in their daughters’ corner fully when it comes to this journey to a baby. I can’t seem to wrap my mind around it even though I’m sure every mother has a reason for saying/doing what they do. My mother never gives up on trying to get us (my brothers and I and our significant others) to go to church or pray . I know she prays for us everyday and I really don’t appreciate her for that enough. I wish she was closer so I could hug her more. Which brings me to my point.
Last week my mother IM’d me and asked me to watch a sermon on TBN. “Just do it for me.” she said. “You gloss over the bible parts but listen to the message”.
I was skeptical, as usual, because it was an hour and a half long sermon but I had the time and nothing to lose and everyone could do with a message of hope at some point during their lives, right?
I haven’t thanked her yet but we’ll talk tomorrow and I’ll talk to her about it. The message in this sermon is just what I needed. Certain points he made spoke to certain doubts I was having and even though I’m not 100% into the bible side of it. The message was not lost on me and I feel more calm about why I am where I am today. Childless with no rhyme or reason as to why. That’s why I think my mom is special. She knows when to reach out. Sometimes she’s wayyy off point and we get a good laugh out of it. But sometimes she hits the nail on the head.
I’ve put a link below to the 2nd part of the sermon (3 parts, each 30min long) in which he particularly talks about infertility. You can start watching at about 5:00min. Parts 1 and 3 are on the website if you want to watch the rest of it. Part 3 also has some good points in it. His main focus was Abraham and Sarah not being able to conceive and what the point of that was. Joseph’s accent is a bit hard to follow sometimes (at some point he says wombs but it sounds like wounds) but I got the message. I’ve watched/listened to this 3 times now and he got me to choke up a few times.
If you’re feeling a bit lost or down in your journey and you have a couple of minutes to spare, even if you’re not religious or anything, here’s a short little video that may help you feel a little better about your situation. Don’t give up hope, my friends.
“Your child will be… Your child will be… And when that child comes… Wow, what a champion”