So Dizzy

Snuggled on the couch stroking the tender spot on my tummy where my first Menopur and Gonal F shots of this second cycle went in, trying to gauge my emotional state.

My physical state is..well.. dizzy, I have a funny chemical taste in the back of my throat and tenderness at the injection site.

All day I was trying to keep busy, cleaning out the bathroom and getting the trim ready for the dining room. I was excited. Mixing the meds I was almost giddy. And now I’m feeling a bit emotional. It might be because I started a full period this morning as a result of stopping the pill so I might be pmsing but I do feel like having a good cry. I’m nervous and my mind is racing. This is not how I wanted this to go.

The theme of this cycle is supposed to be CALM. When I got the antral follicle count on Wednesday (twelve). I spent all day googling antral follicle counts vs egg retrieval counts. That’s not what I wanted to do this cycle but I completely threw all my rules out of the window.

I’m going to try harder to be calmer. I will be calmer. I have yoga and my ivf cd’s. I can do this.

If you’re interested in the technical bits. Here’s what’s happening this cycle.

Day 1:
300iu Gonal F
150iu Menopur
250cc Strawberry Cheesecake

 

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15 thoughts on “So Dizzy

  1. I am very excited for you! Don’t worry about being calm — just go with it. Embrace the calm when you can and let the crazy come when it needs to. And ivf cycle is a freaking minefield! And yeah, I’m also pissed no one put cheesecake on my protocol. Jerks.

  2. Don’t panic about freaking out…you have to let yourself just work through all of your emotions as they come. Such a roller coaster that we’re on during all of this…if you try to tell yourself that you’re not allowed to feel “whatever” then you will drive yourself insane!! Hang in there!

  3. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself to remain calm. It’s so hard and sometimes you just need a good cry. But the cheesecake sounds like a good antidote!

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