Snuggled on the couch stroking the tender spot on my tummy where my first Menopur and Gonal F shots of this second cycle went in, trying to gauge my emotional state.
My physical state is..well.. dizzy, I have a funny chemical taste in the back of my throat and tenderness at the injection site.
All day I was trying to keep busy, cleaning out the bathroom and getting the trim ready for the dining room. I was excited. Mixing the meds I was almost giddy. And now I’m feeling a bit emotional. It might be because I started a full period this morning as a result of stopping the pill so I might be pmsing but I do feel like having a good cry. I’m nervous and my mind is racing. This is not how I wanted this to go.
The theme of this cycle is supposed to be CALM. When I got the antral follicle count on Wednesday (twelve). I spent all day googling antral follicle counts vs egg retrieval counts. That’s not what I wanted to do this cycle but I completely threw all my rules out of the window.
I’m going to try harder to be calmer. I will be calmer. I have yoga and my ivf cd’s. I can do this.
If you’re interested in the technical bits. Here’s what’s happening this cycle.
300iu Gonal F
250cc Strawberry Cheesecake