Snuggled on the couch stroking the tender spot on my tummy where my first Menopur and Gonal F shots of this second cycle went in, trying to gauge my emotional state.
My physical state is..well.. dizzy, I have a funny chemical taste in the back of my throat and tenderness at the injection site.
All day I was trying to keep busy, cleaning out the bathroom and getting the trim ready for the dining room. I was excited. Mixing the meds I was almost giddy. And now I’m feeling a bit emotional. It might be because I started a full period this morning as a result of stopping the pill so I might be pmsing but I do feel like having a good cry. I’m nervous and my mind is racing. This is not how I wanted this to go.
The theme of this cycle is supposed to be CALM. When I got the antral follicle count on Wednesday (twelve). I spent all day googling antral follicle counts vs egg retrieval counts. That’s not what I wanted to do this cycle but I completely threw all my rules out of the window.
I’m going to try harder to be calmer. I will be calmer. I have yoga and my ivf cd’s. I can do this.
If you’re interested in the technical bits. Here’s what’s happening this cycle.
Day 1:
300iu Gonal F
150iu Menopur
250cc Strawberry Cheesecake
Tales of a 30 Year Old Nothing 
I wish I had that last one in MY protocol!
🙂 It comes highly recommended.. by my tummy.
I am very excited for you! Don’t worry about being calm — just go with it. Embrace the calm when you can and let the crazy come when it needs to. And ivf cycle is a freaking minefield! And yeah, I’m also pissed no one put cheesecake on my protocol. Jerks.
Thanks. I’m worried the crazy will overwhelm me. But I did much better today. The cheesecake was so necessary. I have one slice left. 🙂 🙂
Don’t panic about freaking out…you have to let yourself just work through all of your emotions as they come. Such a roller coaster that we’re on during all of this…if you try to tell yourself that you’re not allowed to feel “whatever” then you will drive yourself insane!! Hang in there!
You’re too right. I just don’t want to become too overwhelmed with crazy. Thank you! x
You’re welcome 🙂
Breathe and slow your thoughts. You’re doing great. 🙂
Thanks! Doing much better today.
You lady get a high five for first day of injections 🙂
I’ve got to get some of that cheesecake medicine on my next prescription!!!!
The cheesecake was a life saver. Thanks!!
Don’t put too much pressure on yourself to remain calm. It’s so hard and sometimes you just need a good cry. But the cheesecake sounds like a good antidote!
It was just what I needed. Feeling much better today.
I can understand the high emotions! Between PMSing and starting your protocol, it’s an exciting and nerve wracking time. I hope you are able to find the calmness you were hoping for this cycle!
thank you! much better now but i know it’s going to be a rollercoaster. what fun :).