IVF: Season 3, Episode 3-5

Date: 4.18.16 – 4.20.16

Starring: 75iu Menopur, 300iu Gonal-F, 5mg Melatonin, Ubiquinol, Pre-natal, Vit C, D, E, B12.

Directed by:
Left Ovary – biggest at 11mm
Right Ovary – biggest at 12mm and 11mm

Synopsis: This really has been the most boring cycle. And tiring. It’s probably the melatonin but I’ve been a zombie all week. But all in all, I’m happy about the mundanity. No surprises, no stress.

All shots have gone off without a hitch. Had my first monitoring appointment this morning. She said I have 5 on one ovary and 3 on another but didn’t say which had which. But shout out to my right ovary for having the 2 biggest so far. My lazy girl has come to the party finally! The voicemail the nurse left wasn’t very informative. She just said, everything is going well and to go back on Friday with Ganirelix. No estrodiol levels or anything. At first I wanted to call to find out but I’m okay not knowing. It’s too early for anything and I don’t want to go on a comparing frenzy anyway. Calm and boring is the name of this game.

So far so good 🙂

Food: Been generally healthy (low carb, low sugar, no booze), minus the cake and prosecco on Sunday. No interesting recipes. In fact, we need to go grocery shopping.

Outtakes: (Prince Eric’s face cracks me up)

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source: collegehumor

 

Not Out Yet

HI! Sorry I’ve been quiet, it’s been a busy 6 days. Let’s catch you up, shall we?

On Saturday I pretty much vegged all day. N was at work and I literally didn’t get off the couch. On day 1 they said that 7 embryos were icsi’d and all 7 fertilized. Yay!

On Sunday I needed to get out of the house so I went grocery and christmas shopping for 4 hours and came home and meal prepped for another 4 hours. I was feeling really down in Stop ‘n Shop. I was stressed out and not feeling confident. 7 embryos from 12 is 58% and that’s right on track with ICSI so we were doing good. But I know you all know that feeling and grocery shopping (my favourite thing to do) wasn’t helping. When the nurse called while I was in the organic aisle my heart stopped. I wish I could guage if it’s good or bad news by the way they say “This is so-and-so from Dr so-and-so’s office”, but I can never do it. I wonder what training they go through. Anyway, on day two, thankfully, all seven were still going strong. Sunday was a good day. Or so I thought.

After four hours of cooking we decided to put the tree up and do a final cleaning of the unfinished dining room. We’ll continue work after christmas. I went to lie down after dinner and immediately fell ill. The flu symptoms hit me like a ton of bricks and my ovaries were aching. Actually everything was achy and my skin was sensitive and I’m sure I was dying. I ended up taking all sorts of flu meds and called it a night. Even if I died, my seven babies still had a chance.

On Monday I still felt like I was hit by a truck but I had a meeting and decided to be brave. I do not advise that you leave the house when you have flu symptoms. It was the longest most painful day ever. I couldn’t really take deep breaths which was worrying but I’m one of those people who feels extreme guilt when it comes to taking time off work so again, I powered through. Actually, I just sat at my desk staring at the screen until it came time to leave. I honestly hadn’t thought about my seven little monsters until I got the phone call on the way home. We were down to five. Two arrested. I wouldn’t get an update until Wednesday when they would tell us how many were biopsied. Five is good. Last time on day three we had 2. So I was feeling good amidst feeling really really poorly. I got home stripped down and climbed into bed and didn’t get out until Tuesday.

Tuesday came and I was feeling midly better. flu symptoms had dissipated but the heavy abdomen was still an issue. I decided to call in sick and do some serious resting. I totally overdid it on Sunday and I was beating myself up. Tuesday was much like Saturday. I dragged myself to the couch and watched Netflix all day. By the time N came home I was feeling like my old self again. If we have to do this again, I’m going to be a lot more strict with myself about resting and the whole protein electrolyte thing. We actually had a bit of a tiff on Saturday because I wasn’t being proactive. He was annoyed that I wasn’t taking the nurse’s warning seriously but I honestly felt okay on Saturday. In retrospect I think I may have had mild OHSS. This was definitely the worst I’ve felt after an egg retrieval. I do not want to go through that again.

Back at work yesterday and it was business as usual. I actually had my 90 day review which I “passed” with flying colours. It was a good ego boost, something I desparately needed and I’m glad he thinks I’m doing a good job. I was worried he’d bring up the fact that I’ve missed 2.5 days of work since I started. As I’m writing this I’m silently stressing about asking for the 4th off for my follow up appointment. I want the whole day. I really don’t want to come in on the first day of the new year. I want to ease myself into 2016. Let’s see how it goes.

Yesterday was day 5. My 5 boogers were supposed to be biopsied. I sent them all positive vibes and told them how proud I was. I wondered what time they do biopsy. Is it as soon as they become blastocysts or do they wait a bit? I was very nervous. Guilty that I didn’t spend as much time thinking about them as I should have while I was sick. I just hoped that everything was going well. A little confident because up until now everything was going well. Again, the call came as I was driving home. It did not go as I’d expected.

We were down to four… They were still morulas… They hadn’t been biopsied… They would call tomorrow to see if any were biopsied.

I was shocked. I honestly expected most to drop off. But I didn’t expect them all to be slow growers. I texted N when I got home. His response was simply “Shit”. That sums it up perfectly. Of course there’s always room for hope, so hope we shall. When he got home he said they were probably just taking their time and proceeded to talk about something else. I don’t know how husbands can be calm at times like these, but it’s appreciated. I think that’s why they make husbands.

Anyway, that’s where we are at now. I’m okay. I knew this was going to be a tough road for us. We can do this again next month if need be and if these 4 make it then great! It’ll be okay. We’re not out yet. t-minus seven hours until we find out the next steps.

Let the Games Begin

Just a quick update as I’m in full on rest mode. Everything went well. We have 12 little eggs who are hopefully fertilizing away nicely. Now comes the super dee duper stressful part. But today, right now, we have 12 and that’s alright by me.

The pain is manageable but there and I’m dizzy but what else is new. I might just need a nap.

Thank you all for cheering me on and checking in. N and I and our 12 potentials are forever grateful.

The End is Nigh

Well, I did it. I am unstoppable! Haha. Took the shot in my car outside the clinic before the sun had come up. I felt like I was doing something shady and illegal. But I did it!

I’m to head back there tomorrow and hopefully that’ll be the last of it. They said I could potentially trigger tomorrow. Just in time. I’m actually okay with a trigger tomorrow or Thursday because if it’s tomorrow, I’ll get the day off on Friday. If it’s Thursday it’ll give my right ovary a bit more time to catch up. Still only 2 measurable follies.

They’re also lowering my dose for tonight’s shots. Part of me is like noooo! My right follie needs more love! But I must trust that they know what they’re doing. The doctor was also  talking about a Lupron trigger this time? I did an HCG trigger last time. Does anyone have any stories about a Lupron trigger, perhaps? I read that they use a Lupron trigger if you’re at risk for OHSS. My E2 is 2500+. Doesn’t seem risky to me yet but again. Trust. But yeah, if you have a Lupron story please share.

Here’s to my righty catching up! Come on girly!

Day 10, IVF 2:
200iu Gonal F
75iu Menopur
1 syringe Ganirelix

E2: 2500+
LH: Not given
Lefty: 8 the biggest is at 18.5
Righty: 2 fighters 12.5mm and 15mm

Physical:
Sore boobs today.
Nausea was at fever pitch this morning.

Emotional:
Nerves are kicking in. What if’s are everywhere. Sigh.

Food:
left over cottage pie

Moment of Zen:

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8 on Day 8

I couldn’t do the Ganirelix shot. I held it in my hand ready to go and I broke into a cold sweat. Had to wake N up to do it. How do people give themselves shots? Hats off to you if you’re able. I am not.

We now have 8 follicles growing nicely. I forgot to ask when my expected retrieval would be and also if I’d need to order new meds. Next appointment is Tuesday. I’ll ask then. I’m happy with 8 so far. I’m not going to Google and do comparisons. I have 8. These 8 are mine. I am happy. I talked to my right ovary and she gave me 2. I’m very proud. Well done Righty!

Day 8, IVF 2:
300iu Gonal F
150iu Menopur
1 syringe Ganirelix

E2: 1400
LH: Not given
Lefty: 6 ranging between 10mm and 15mm
Righty: 2 glorious little ones around 12ish mm

Physical:
Same as before but becoming bearable.

Emotional:
Same old same old

Food:
Leftover steak and cheese calzone and calamari.

Moment of Zen:
I love stand up comedy. Love! Here’s Louis CK talking about his daughter playing hide and seek.

Come on Righty!

Damn, I just got comfortable with my laptop and I forgot my notes from the phone call in my backpack. Oh well, time to wing it!

I knew my right ovary was going to be difficult. At my baseline appointment she was hiding away and I had to push on my tummy to help the nurse find her. And true to form, she was hiding again today. The nurse said she saw follicles but nothing measurable yet.

Lefty is rocking it, in my opinion. She counted 4 that were around 10 and a few other little ones. Well done lefty!

Next appointment is on Sunday. I’m glad things are moving along. I forgot how quickly this stimulation goes. We’re almost half way already.

Day 5, IVF 2:
300iu Gonal F
150iu Menopur

E2: 402.5
LH: 2.36
Lefty: 2 @10.5mm, 2@10mm, a few more @<11mm
Righty: a few @ <11mm

Physical:
Just feeling drained.

Emotional:
Getting to the top of the IVF wave where the sun is shining.

Food:
I threw a bunch of stuff in a pot and we ate it. I think there was meat and potatoes.

Moment of Zen:
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Let’s Get Going!

I don’t have anything exciting to report today. These meds are officially kicking my ass. I’m so tired I’m going right to bed after this. And I was so sick last night. I woke up in the middle of the night with violent motion sickness. It felt like I spent all day slamming Jack Daniels in the sun. Ew.

Tomorrow is my first monitoring appointment. Time to kick this cycle into 2nd gear finally.

Day 4, IVF 2:
300iu Gonal F
150iu Menopur

Physical:
Really tired.
All day nausea. A cosmic joke?

Emotional:
Blah

Food:
Leftovers from yesterday.

Moment of Zen:
Edit: Actually going to link this entire Buzzfeed article. So funny!
27 Vines That Will 100% Make You Laugh

In Other News

If you won the lottery what would you change on your body? If you say nothing, I don’t want to friends with you… Just kidding but man, that would be awesome. I actually think for the most part I’ve made peace with my lumpy bumpy areas and such but one part I have always wanted to fix is my damned teeth.

I’ve hated them my whole life. Well as long as I’ve had them anyways. I had braces for a bit but let’s just chalk it up to an unqualified dentist. So here I sit with a messed up grill and years of insecurity about my smile.

So I finally went to see someone about my pearly yellows and looks like I’ll be getting braces in 2016. I met with a dental surgeon yesterday and he was like “Ew, I can’t fix this, go see an orthodontist”… I’m sure he used more professional language and he was actually very nice and made me very excited about my options but it wouldn’t be me if I wasn’t a bit dramatic.

So I’m off to see the orthodontist in 27 days! N is worried that I’ll have to get the old school train track looking ones. I am just excited to be getting my teeth fixed! I’ll even go so far as to say I’m a teensy bit more excited than I am about egg retrieval. Just because I know the outcome of this will be awesome.

It’s going to be a great December, everyone.

Day 3, IVF 2:
300iu Gonal F
150iu Menopur

Physical:
Injection site sensitive. Found a bruise from yesterday.
No more dizziness
No more funny taste
Period seems to have ended. Happy day.
Twitches felt in abdomen. Whoop!

Emotional:
Read above about teeth. This is overshadowing any fear/anxiety of IVF process.

Food:
Roasted chicken
Sweet potatoes
Cheesy cauliflower gratin

Moment of Zen:
So cheesy but I lol’d.

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Embryo Update

Well hellooo. I know it’s been a while but I wanted to rest up fully after egg retrieval and I didn’t feel up to  typing of any sort this weekend :).

So the retrieval was at 9ish on Friday morning. We got there at 7:30 and hubby did his thing at 8:30. The IV they put in hurt like hell. I think my veins were just over it at this point. The anesthetist and the surgeon came to discuss the procedure with me and said I wouldn’t be out for more than 10-15 minutes. I tried reading to occupy my mind but I obviously couldn’t concentrate. When it finally came to go-time they took me to the bathroom to pee then walked me into the room. I had to lay down and pop my legs into the stirrups, there were about 5 people in the room and while she was strapping me in I had to recite my name and DOB for a lady with a clip board. As soon as I laid my head back I was out. I woke up around 10:15 and felt a tiny bit cramping but nothing to write home about. I got some crackers and a ginger ale and waited for the old surgeon to let me know how it went. We were out of there by 10:30 with 14 eggs waiting to be fertilized. I was so relieved and hopeful. It was a good day.

Fast forward to today. I’ve cried a total of 5 times. I’ve gone from insanely happy and excited to honestly wanting to cancel the whole thing and just give up. I had no idea the roller coaster of emotions I would have to endure. This is not fun at all and to top it all off, I am violently constipated. I have IBS issues and they’re in full swing right now. I’m very uncomfortable and emotional. It’s not a good combo.

The tally right now is pretty good, in my opinion. Of the 14 eggs, 13 were mature and 8 fertilized and yesterday I got the call that 7 were still in the running.  They’re not going to call anymore with updates. I have to call them on Wednesday to find out how many were biopsied. I have no idea how I’m going to get through the next couple of days. I think I should start running again. Maybe it’ll help.

I don’t really want to talk about the next steps since I don’t want to jinx anything. I’ll write a blog about my crazy superstitions one day, but today, at this moment, we have 7 potential little babies growing far away from us and I love them and I just hope they’re doing okay.

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Damn you IV!!